In the glimpse of a picture, everything seems perfectly normal. I really don't know how much is normal or what really is normal anymore. Saylor simply having to have her LIVE vaccinations means me being away from my baby for two weeks. Don't get me wrong, I like a free day here and there! I had put it off as long as I could and finally caved, but in more ways than one. Strong...no....just one big sappy Momma. Lots and lots of crying and feeling extremely incompetent as her Mommy. Talk about Mom guilt!! Although, the planner in me crammed everything I needed to do with her gone. Aka.....new hospitals, doctors, travel and friends, but not the travel I owe so love. Now back home for three days I can't let her go!! No school, instead days full of parks, ducks, picnics and anything to make she and I both feel like we are making up for lost time. As long as I can live, I would take it just like it is to keep from missing a moment. A sweet friend from cardiac rehab, not recognizing me, noticing me struggling spinning the kids on the play set came over and offered to help. HELP can be hard to receive, now in my mind I started strong, but was really finishing out pretty weak. She said it best to me, "a Mommy's inner strength is stronger than any sickness our bodies may try to limit us too". Such wisdom and truth. Learning in life how to make the best lemonade. Sometimes it may be bitter, too sweet, not sweet enough or just not enough vodka. But enjoying each sip and greatful to just be sipping!!!!!!